And she said let there be life...

New year...I figured let's try this blogging thing again. Or at least put the things I want to change/do/happen down on the virtual paper so I don't forget. I am good at forgetting.
Welcome New Year 2010..good bye 2009, not a great year for me and mine (though we got Linus and I had my VBAC) but job wise, money wise and life wise, it was a hard year.

Sooooooo...what do I want from 2010? Well, I want to get back to my values and stop spending so much time thinking about shit that just doesn't really matter.

I want to make our bread, yogurt and cheese...every week. I really do have the time. If I took 1/2 the time I spend putting around the interweb, I would have more than enough time to do it!

I want to get back to enjoying my little kids. My expectations of their behavior has been skewed somehow over the last year. They are 5 and 3...they should be acting like they are 5 and 3!

I want to live more in the moment. I know it is a cliche but we spend a lot of time planning in my house...planning the day, the week, the year, 10 years! Kids and school will do that to you...I want to step away from that a bit and not plan so much. Yeah, I hate my house and I want to move but it ain't happening anytime soon...so quit stressing about it!

I want to get my posture under control...three babies in 6 years and my posture is wrecked! I will work on it when sitting! Sounds silly but I get terrible headaches from it.

I want to find something that is just for me. Call it mama guilt, call it genetics from my mother but I'm done being a self-imposed martyr...if I can spend $15 on a pair of shoes for a child how does not yet walk, I can get my hair cut ever couple months. Yeah..and I can shower everyday...really it is not that hard!

I want to push myself, do some stuff that breaks me out of my comfort zone! Make new friends, spend time with adults, share myself with other, know that I don't have to be perfect everyday, all the time, play with my children (not just watch them play) everyday...I need to make some changes for sure!

So, let us see if I can keep up this cathartic exercise!